Andromache's Grief

Tuesday, February 12th, 2008

I am filled with grief and worries. It has completely overcome my whole body to the degree where I cannot think about anything going on around me. My husband Hector told me tonight that he wants to leave to go fight in the Trojan war. I did all I could to talk him out of this, but he refused to stay behind. He told me it was not noble, and everyone in our city would be counting on him to help fight.

I cannot stand the thought of this. I grew up having lost my father, and that is the last thing I want for our son. We made the choice to have him, and he did not ask to lose his father. This is not fair to our family. I understand why he wants to contribute and do all he can, but knowing the consequences and outcome of the situation I feel it's selfish of him not to put his family first. If he truly loved us as much as he should, he would think of us and how we feel.

All this mess could have been prevented had his brother just been a little less self involved and left Helen in Troy. I get sick of seeing Hector always picking up after his brothers messes, especially when Paris is too busy making love to Helen to go help fight. This puts my whole family at risk and it's just more than I can handle for now. I don't want anyone coming to tell me bad news of my husband's fate.

When he said goodbye to us tonight, it was all I could do to hold in the screams I felt inside. I know in my heart he can never make it back to us after this war. He knows, chances are this will be the end of us as a family. We do not deserve this. He needs to be here for us, and to watch our son grow old. A male's duty is to be there to protect his family, but instead he's too involved in protecting our whole city. We need to stick together, and we have the option to, he just doesn't feel that it is right. I am proud of the kind of man he is, but I love him more. My son and I need him more.